Monday, July 17, 2006.
feeling very fan. went to school and realise that today got 2 bloody hours of lecture in LT 5, which the aircon is not working. 5 min past, the air is very humid and heavy. 10 min and we are perspiring.15 min really cannot tahan. whole body very sticky. everyone was so fuck up. the stuffiness was unbearable and it is adding on to my vexed mind. really want to just walk out of the LT. but i cant. i humji. enough of bad records le. i dont want more trouble from teachers and principal. REN! i fall asleep. waking up times and times by the heat.
finally one hours past. went out to catch a breather.
after awhile had to go back in. time somehow pass faster this time as we have to copy notes.
another hour past. finally the time i had to spend in that LT is over. when to class for tutorial. pulled up my school pant. really very hot and sticky. and that freaking damn ZINC bag de skin keep peeling off and sticking all over my hands. i was really very irritated with it. really feel like throwing it on the floor and burn it. but i cant. i have no bags, haven buy. no money. zzz.
folding up my pants really helps. but i look like some lao ah pek. with my school pants de colour looks more similar.
as i was folding my pants i thought i saw someone walked past my class. when i got up to see. there's no one. i asked teng siang if anyone walked past. he said no. but i remember clearly that i saw a figure walk past. o.O weird.
couldnt focus for both my 2 hours tutorial. my mind is vexed and screwed up.
school's over. met jason. he came to my house. at 3 when to CP meet mandy and jl for yoshi.
yoshi is the only think that make me feel better. loly. yoshi kaki jl is there also. had a chat with my mummy (mandy). till dont know what time. jl had to go meet ru and jy.
we went to punggol park. actually wanted to drink alcohol. but si ex. no $$. must save. bought the soya bean nilk instead. when to the park. whole place was very good. like the atmosphere there. it was so long since i've been there.
went to take a walk. everything turns out fine and i'm very glad. =)
i told myself at the very start. to accept who you are and to understand.
to be the that special one unlike any other people who'll understand you.
but my thinking just keeps on wandering. i cant take it to but ask. sorry that i hurt you.
sorry that i make you tears.
m feeling very bad for doing that when i told you i'll take care of you.
of all the people, i hope to be the one who really understand.
and i'm working my way toward that. give me time.
dont be disappointed will you? =)
but i really saw a china man! omg. and he's wearing a yellow slipper, carrying a plastic bag. shit. i'm seeing things. glad to hear that you are happy. i'm too when you are.
I HAVE A GOAL! 11:22 PM.
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