Saturday, October 27, 2007.
why?! why must things evolve till this kind of situation? i hate things to turn out this way. why?? i'm really pushed to my limit. sigh. i did not think bad of you. i do not hope that just because you want to spite someone and do things to harm yourself. it's really from the bottom of my heart. not an excuse to get away with what i said like you thou it to be.
why cant our character get along. if it does, we'll really work out very fine. i gave in as much as i could be things just doest change for the better. ARGH!!!
there again. going back to keep all my pains and unhappiness to myself. where can i find myself a really best friend? who would want to be other than my group of very good brothers i have? nvm. i still can manage alone.
i should be concentrating on my A level last night. but why do i alway tend to get worried about you. where are you? are you alone out there? how are you feeling? are you ok? so late le safe not? what if anything happens and you doesnt want to tell me how? sigh..... am i too soft hearted? really am i? is it a good or bad thing? why cant i be softhearted and not be hurt in the end? why this just wont happen? why must i alway be hurt? physically, mentally, emotionally. running nose, sore throat, ulcer. very xin ku. almost got a virial attack again and i'm still on the verge right now.
sigh. how i wish you really change. i've changed alot for your sake. if u willing to do so and prove to me, i would do even better. it's not a matter of who change 1st anyway. i'm willing to do it first as long as u honor your word and would do likewise.
i think back of all our beautiful memorises. but avoid whenever i came to the bad ones. happy memorises i embrace you!
sigh. worried about your body. your breathing difficulty most importantly. your flu, you falling sick. you going into the rain. your overdose of strespils. whether you got money and appetitate to eat. haha.am i silly to go worry about such things anymore? but i do. ok. i'll try not to if i can.
good luck to your A's most importantly. your relationship, your career, your future, turning into the beauty standard you want. if after A's cant see you. wish you luck and your body to be real strong. lastly, one day you'll really be enlighten about your temper and put a change to it. really hope for the change and everything.
GOOD LUCK. ALL THE BEST.
I HAVE A GOAL! 9:16 AM.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007.
another shit hit me. A level in 7 days. going back to camp in 5 days = no time for studying.
I HAVE A GOAL! 3:51 PM.
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today i'm going to changi airport with jay el to study over night. hope jy is working tonight. can ask him out to eat. yeah. sth diff here. gonna try to study as much as possible.
I HAVE A GOAL! 3:46 PM.
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my time during mc was bad. fall sick numerous times. dont know why. hmmmm...... anyway. i'm unable to go for MSCC (Mechanic Section Commander Course) which i'm able to be promoted to sgt. course which not many can go. Reason: i'm unable to run after my ops. and they replace without telling me. till one week plus after the decision, when i to talk to my friend then i get to know about it. seriouly, i'm utterly disappointed. totally not motivated to go army anymore. sth which i looked forward to for months and it's dashed now. cool. guess things neverever goes the way i want. seem like i'm gonna ORD at most a coporal provided they even promote me to LCP in the 1st place. forever serving as a men. there goes my passion. :) i an undead now. guess i dont need to keep doing exercise for my leg anymore. just wait till physio then exercise my leg. sigh~
I HAVE A GOAL! 3:38 PM.
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YEAH!!! i found the way to blog.
I HAVE A GOAL! 3:38 PM.